It would have been nice to know. I never sensed the problem. At least I know it now and its good to know you’ll be there to tell me what’s too much. I just think its unfathomable how much distress one person can cause which is probably why I can’t really put myself in your shoes. why can’t we just all he happy and get along?! Is my annoying truly impossible?… It hurts me that for the longest time you were hurting inside and it hurts most when the person I trusted the most never trusted me for 8 months just for a hunch, a whim, a gut feeling. How shallow do you think I am? But I can’t hate on you… youre more than I ever expected and could ask from a single person. You can sacrifice so much for us yet, I’ve done didly squat. It’s time for me to take action.. and the one time I was actually willing to sacrifice and get my hands bloody from a broken friendship, you say no! It will make you happy, you just said it! I spent a while mulling it over my head, imagining the consequences and willing to take the risk. I was willing to rip a part of myself out just to prove to you my feelings and so you can feel better. By telling me I didn’t need to, it just played with my emotions. I was willing to break a promise for your sake. I don’t even know what to do; my mind is drawing a blank. I can’t move forward or move back. If I move back, it hurts you. If I stay, it hurts you. If I move forward, it hurts me but I need to start taking these kind of risks for us. I don’t have a choice but to turn away without a goodbye, suck it up, learn to do things “right”, and hope for the best…. I need to start pushing if I’m ever gonna get this rollercoaster uphill.
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It would have been nice to know. I never sensed the problem. At least I know it now and its good to know you’ll be there to tell me what’s too much. I just think its unfathomable how much distress one person can cause which is probably why I can’t really put myself in your shoes. why can’t we just all he happy and get along?! Is my annoying truly impossible?… It hurts me that for the longest time you were hurting inside and it hurts most when the person I trusted the most never trusted me for 8 months just for a hunch, a whim, a gut feeling. How shallow do you think I am? But I can’t hate on you… youre more than I ever expected and could ask from a single person. You can sacrifice so much for us yet, I’ve done didly squat. It’s time for me to take action.. and the one time I was actually willing to sacrifice and get my hands bloody from a broken friendship, you say no! It will make you happy, you just said it! I spent a while mulling it over my head, imagining the consequences and willing to take the risk. I was willing to rip a part of myself out just to prove to you my feelings and so you can feel better. By telling me I didn’t need to, it just played with my emotions. I was willing to break a promise for your sake. I don’t even know what to do; my mind is drawing a blank. I can’t move forward or move back. If I move back, it hurts you. If I stay, it hurts you. If I move forward, it hurts me but I need to start taking these kind of risks for us. I don’t have a choice but to turn away without a goodbye, suck it up, learn to do things “right”, and hope for the best…. I need to start pushing if I’m ever gonna get this rollercoaster uphill.
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Why does this feel different….. And how do I fix it?
Why does this feel different….. And how do I fix it?
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yup, shouldve tried harder -_-
yup, shouldve tried harder -_-
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Lent Yup, it’s that time of year again! Prayer, Fasting and Almsgiving :) Things I’m giving up (so you can make sure I follow through xD)
Social Networking (FB, Tumblr, etc..) (not email) (or my phone lol)
ANY candy (skittles especially! and other types of chocolates and stuffs)
Heh, I plan on the full 40 days this year. Let’s see how I do :D but til then..
Lent
Yup, it’s that time of year again! Prayer, Fasting and Almsgiving :)
Things I’m giving up (so you can make sure I follow through xD)
- Social Networking (FB, Tumblr, etc..) (not email) (or my phone lol)
- ANY candy (skittles especially! and other types of chocolates and stuffs)
Heh, I plan on the full 40 days this year. Let’s see how I do :D but til then..
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Reblog if you’re ugly. (Source: jonny-craig4l, via neilanthonyb)
Reblog if you’re ugly.
(Source: jonny-craig4l, via neilanthonyb)
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Girl’s Comment on Youtube: I just wet my panties… and I didn’t pee… My Reaction
Girl’s Comment on Youtube: I just wet my panties… and I didn’t pee…
My Reaction
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Am I a total nerd for kinda wanting a double driver? *drool* hahahaha
Am I a total nerd for kinda wanting a double driver?
*drool* hahahaha
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A sad reality of life For most people in first world countries, the question is rarely “IF I’ll get food”, its mainly “WHERE and WHEN I’ll get food”….
A sad reality of life
For most people in first world countries, the question is rarely “IF I’ll get food”, its mainly “WHERE and WHEN I’ll get food”….
